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Huh, I am suddenly extremely ... er, fidgety? That's not a word, is it? But I can't think of the word I originally meant, so it's staying.

Anyway, I feel about as excited as if I were planning to leave tomorrow. Except I'm not even sure it's in any way related to the hospital thing; it just attacked me out of nowhere! "Here, have some random feelings! Like them??" NO.

I guess this is another one of those adrenaline rushes then. The slightly less evil version of a panic attack. I'm just really impatient! About nothing in particular! Somebody, make something happen! Brain, have an idea! People, post more interesting stuff on the internet! Concentration issues, go away so I can actually read the text that's in front of me! IDEK. @___@

Also I'm simultaneously very tired hahaha. WORST. COMBINATION. EVER.

I mean, I was going to make a list of all the things that I need or want to do within the next two weeks, but so far I haven't been able to make myself focus on it for long enough to even start. I can only stare dumbly at Tumblr because I'm too tired for anything else. AND YET.
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Now let's see if all of this appears on LiveJournal as it's supposed to. :)

My week has been decidedly strange so far. Once again I am only sleeping every other night, which I find rather fascinating because it's been ages since the last time I even had the energy to pull that off, although I try not to think of it as a good thing. Me and unusual amounts of energy, that's always a sign of something bad going on behind the scenes - I don't think it has ever been anything else, no matter how often it caused other people to believe that I was making progress or finally getting a move on. Not that there's a chance of that happening now, mind you. All I do is sleep too little.

Somehow I did manage to send my sister a proper birthday card and some money, though. It arrived exactly on the right day, self-made origami envelope and all. That's the fifth sibling-birthday in a row I have not screwed up; one more to go and I'll have made it through two whole years. Baby steps.

My mother suddenly discovered that a woman she's known for quite some time has fibromyalgia, too. There is something very reassuring about the things she told me they've talked about, although I can't say what exactly. I guess for the most part I'm just relieved that this person appears to be a lot more like me than the people I met during my hospital stay last year. She allowed her to give me her number and even offered to take me along to a meeting of her support group sometime if I want to, which is really a great idea because it would make getting there so much easier. I hope I'll manage to make that phone call soon, somewhere inbetween the sleeping and not sleeping. Unfortunately I often feel like I've blinked once and a week went by unnoticed.

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