So that's that.

Wednesday, May 4th, 2011 06:45 am
faevii: (ye shall not eff me)
I almost forgot about the other half of the offline log. To summarise what I have not yet mentioned, for a while I had a cold and could hardly do anything (which is why I spent so much time playing DA2), then I was without a computer for two days because Daniel wanted to have it looked at, computer dude recommended that we reinstall Windows, a week later we did so (which is why I have no image editing software anymore), I made some surprisingly tasty cookies from completely random ingredients, and at some point I was very cranky due to a trapped nerve in my shoulder. Things that ... aren't well-suited to being summed up, under the cut. it's not that much though, don't worry )

Now, three more days of internet starting either at noon today or at midnight - I cannot for the life of me figure out if the timestamp means 12 AM or 12 PM. After that, you probably won't hear from me until I've got my own computer and my own flatrate. Blergh. MONEY, Y U NO GROW ON TREES ;___;


Thursday, December 2nd, 2010 02:43 pm
faevii: (pain and suffering)
Uh, I promise not to fall into a three-posts-a-day habit again, but this wants out.

I've been taking the new meds for two weeks now and evidently I have not completely lost my mind. So far, so good. However, I'm not seeing any positive effects, either ... unless you count having managed to sleep normally for a week due to not sleeping very well and thus being constantly tired, which I'm really not sure is a good thing. Besides, the night before last my insomnia finally won out anyway.

I'm definitely going to give it some more time, but on the other hand I'm not sure it isn't affecting my mental state negatively at all. It's just so hard to say because I've been a bit nuts for two whole months! How do I tell whether it's being made worse by the meds or not?

There's this incredible boredom I can't get rid of. I already said this about a month ago, but it feels a bit like mania and depression at the same time. Part of me is going "DO SOMETHING DO SOMETHING DO SOMETHING" like a squirrel on crack and yet I'm also completely NOT in the mood to do anything I can think of.

Occasionally this is made worse by sudden attacks of undefinied anxiety. I'm amazed I can even write at the moment because I am fidgeting rather dramatically and nearly bit through my lip a minute ago. My body is tingling as if pure adrenaline were flowing through my veins instead of blood and I have trouble breathing. SO MUCH FUN.

I don't know what it's about, I don't know what might help, I don't know anything. And it's definitely getting worse. Less and less things can hold my attention - almost every single day I lose another topic that I could previously read or hear about without getting distracted. If only I could simply go for a run or something!

Damn You Auto Correct helps sometimes. XD

Ahh, finally I can breathe again. Not that it's completely gone, but then ... it never really leaves.


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