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Doctors ...
I haven't been very happy with my treatment at the hospital lately. While at first I got the impression that I would have at least one longer conversation with my doctor each week, now it sometimes seems like all I can expect is to be asked how I'm doing once or twice. Since he appeared to be so fascinated with my case in the beginning, I'm starting to suspect that this is actually his boss's doing. I don't like that guy.
Whatever the cause, I've been getting more and more frustrated because how I happen to feel on Mondays and Wednesdays is not exactly enough information to draw any conclusions from, right? How are they supposed to come up with a diagnosis like this? Additionally they are also frustrated with me because I often have trouble answering the question (I get nervous when I have to talk to them, but I can't just answer "I'm feeling nervous" every single time), and apparently my job is to spend the rest of the week thinking really hard until I figure out what's wrong by myself ...?
I'm sure there is some kind of misunderstanding going on here, but shouldn't these people be more experienced at preventing those? Shouldn't they be the ones asking me questions until they understand me better, instead of periodically being surprised when I force another piece of interesting information down their throats by way of saying "but" a lot and persistently changing the topic until they listen??
It's almost funny. That is to say, it would be funny if I were better at determining what it is that they need to know. These moments of surprise that I just mentioned are merely the result of so much desperate babbling on my part that I eventually hit on something useful by accident. All of which could be avoided if they asked me the right questions, so ... WTF?!
And they keep concentrating on my current living situation, as if that were to blame for everything. They even suggested that what I'm going through right now, a.k.a. my biggest recurring problem ever, might only be a distraction that my mind had conjured up to avoid the "real" issue at hand. Excuse me?! If you'd let me talk for long enough to get that far, I would have long since informed you that actually WHAT YOU'RE WRITING OFF AS AN UNIMPORTANT DISTRACTION IS THE REASON WHY I'M HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE. ARGH.
However, I've had an idea now. I know exactly what I'm going to tell them tomorrow and I won't let them deter me until I'm done speaking. Maybe I'll write it down and practise a little just in case.
Seriously though, why is that necessary??
Whatever the cause, I've been getting more and more frustrated because how I happen to feel on Mondays and Wednesdays is not exactly enough information to draw any conclusions from, right? How are they supposed to come up with a diagnosis like this? Additionally they are also frustrated with me because I often have trouble answering the question (I get nervous when I have to talk to them, but I can't just answer "I'm feeling nervous" every single time), and apparently my job is to spend the rest of the week thinking really hard until I figure out what's wrong by myself ...?
I'm sure there is some kind of misunderstanding going on here, but shouldn't these people be more experienced at preventing those? Shouldn't they be the ones asking me questions until they understand me better, instead of periodically being surprised when I force another piece of interesting information down their throats by way of saying "but" a lot and persistently changing the topic until they listen??
It's almost funny. That is to say, it would be funny if I were better at determining what it is that they need to know. These moments of surprise that I just mentioned are merely the result of so much desperate babbling on my part that I eventually hit on something useful by accident. All of which could be avoided if they asked me the right questions, so ... WTF?!
And they keep concentrating on my current living situation, as if that were to blame for everything. They even suggested that what I'm going through right now, a.k.a. my biggest recurring problem ever, might only be a distraction that my mind had conjured up to avoid the "real" issue at hand. Excuse me?! If you'd let me talk for long enough to get that far, I would have long since informed you that actually WHAT YOU'RE WRITING OFF AS AN UNIMPORTANT DISTRACTION IS THE REASON WHY I'M HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE. ARGH.
However, I've had an idea now. I know exactly what I'm going to tell them tomorrow and I won't let them deter me until I'm done speaking. Maybe I'll write it down and practise a little just in case.
Seriously though, why is that necessary??