"Names are important as they tell you a great deal about a person."

[faevii]

Three days since my last post, when did that happen?? Okay, more like two and a few hours, but I'm still not sure where all that time went. I, uh ... did ... nothing? Except for talking to people and watching Merlin, it seems. Well, and witnessing Timo being adorable. :)

Anyway, I thought about the name thing a lot and eventually decided that I'm going to stick with Lin for the time being. All through yesterday I was suddenly very unsure about it, but it was mostly because I feared that other people wouldn't find it gender-neutral enough and not because I had any problems with the name itself. Then, today, the following quote (attributed to Steve Jobs) appeared on my Tumblr dashboard:

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

I felt mildly creeped out for a moment because it practically seemed to be directed at me. But of course, the person who posted it doesn't even know me. I concluded that this was clearly a sign and promptly changed my name to Lin everywhere. :D

I'm not certain I won't change my mind about it one day, but for the time being it feels good to have a name. I mean, it's not just a name change; I honestly feel like I've been completely nameless for years. Deciding how to sign letters and cards to anyone other than my family was always a huge struggle.

Daniel demonstrated his mind-boggling ability to read me like a book once more and guessed exactly what was going on soon after I'd innocently asked him whether he thought that Lin sounded male or female. I ended up telling him the entire story including my doubts and fears and he didn't act as if it was weird at all, which reminded me of ... better times. I'm glad I don't have to worry about that, at least.

Hi, I'm Lin. Nice to meet you.

Comments

[duowolf]

Nice to met you too :)

[zanzando]

Nice to meet you too. :)