Another Goodbye

[faevii]

I spent the afternoon with Daniel, talking and listening to music. It was nice ... really nice. I love that I don't have to explain my problems to him anymore because he already knows what I mean when I say things like, "You know, that thing that always happens when I'm surrounded by new people." He knows almost everything. Sometimes I think we're much better off being friends instead of a couple.

Now I'm in the process of packing and it's going better than last time. I think. Unless I'm just unaware of the fact that I'm forgetting something important. I still have a lot of trouble trying to be a normal person during weekends; I'm afraid the only reason why I keep surviving them is that weekends are so short. >.<

It's really weird. Whenever I need to plan something, be it grocery shopping or packing or any random chore, my brain kind of freezes like an overburdened computer. There must be a fear of some kind hidden behind that, but of what? Thankfully my doctor's vacation is over now and tomorrow I get to talk to him again. I need to figure this out.

In any case I'll be gone soon, whether I catch the right train this time or not. See you next week, unless you're on Twitter, in which case you'll hear from me often enough due to how bored I always get. :P

Comments

[zanzando]

I see. Or rather I don't. But no, while it's similar to ADHD, it's usually pretty constant. Unless I trick myself into deciding things in advance. Sometimes I just want a keeper, who tells me things like "Get up! Go to class! Wash the dishes! etc." Doing it is not the problem, generally. I'm not lazy. But everyone still thinks that. SIGH.

[faevii]

I do know that feeling, including the desire for a keeper ... I guess I should be glad it's not constant, then. I just wish I knew how to prevent it! Right this second I am about to miss the train I should have taken because I once again couldn't figure out how packing worked. Urgh.

[zanzando]

Oh, do I ever know that feeling. << perpetually late