Faith in human bodies to be smart occasionally: restored.

I have a cold. Pretty bad one. It saved me.

... This is going to be hard to explain, isn't it. :D Well, no - actually, it's pretty simple: Suddenly I can sleep at night! Oh, the wonders of enforced physical tiredness.

But there's more to it than just that. I always start to feel strangely calm and content when I'm inflicted with a proper, normal, boring-ass illness that anyone can get at any time. Sounds psychological, and to an extent it probably is, but I also have this theory that the "something is actually wrong for once; you need rest" signals somehow override whatever it is that's usually telling my body to be on constant alert. And lo, I relax. It's like maaaaagic.

Still insane though. :P

Outside of the moments when my head was hurting too badly or my temperature was doing funny things, these past two days haven't been so bad. I just had to fill and turn on the dishwasher and didn't mind, FFS.

(Remember, the first step when I'm feeling better than usual is always to start helping with the laundry. Sometimes the dishwasher comes next, but it's been a while since I even got as far as the laundry. As for why I had to ... Daniel is asleep, I am hungry and there are no clean plates or cutlery to be seen anywhere. o.O)

Chocolate & Subtitles

Realised that I can still eat dark chocolate. Face, meet palm. I never liked it all that much on its own, but lots of things that happen to be coated with dark chocolate have just become an option again.

Also, I recently discovered how easy to use downloadable subtitles are. I thought I'd have to learn how to install them first and was never in the mood to go looking for a tutorial, so I told myself that it was totally okay if I only understood 60% of what I was watching sometimes. Except it obviously wasn't. This is why I am very happy to have accidentally downloaded a torrent that already included the subtitles for all files, which then turned out to be all simple and self-explanatory! If you use VLC, that is - I don't know about other players.

It was about time I figured that out, too. How did I even make it through five seasons of Doctor Who without subtitles?! There was a point, somewhere along the way, when I asked myself if watching things in English was really worth this much trouble. I very nearly started to consider (LOL) downloading German dubs instead, if available.

Then I realised that I don't actually understand German much better. Haha. I mean, of course there is a difference. I've had 24 years to get used to this language, to identify patterns and become relatively good at guessing what someone might have said if I didn't properly catch it - with English I just don't have that. Still, I've seen things in German that I didn't understand more than maybe 75% of, either. Come to think of it, I've had conversations of which I understood less than that. It's all a question of luck.

So basically, all those times I tried to watch something in English without subtitles because after all I didn't "need" subtitles for German, either? I should have considered the option that maybe I do. The stress I could have been avoiding! >_<

Can't decide what it was that fucked me over: lack of information, internalised ableism or pride. Possibly a combination of all three.