Watch as I think before I act!

Sooo ... the name Lin is really growing on me. Like, a lot. I'm basically just holding myself back out of cautiousness before I instruct everyone to call me that only to discover that I've overlooked an important reason why I shouldn't. It's not easy because I finally want to get rid of that "Tja" I've put on my profiles everywhere!

According to this website that I discovered while googling it, Baby Name Guesser, Lin is slightly more likely to be a female name while Linn is slightly more likely to be a male name. That sounds wrong to me, LOL. I don't like Lyn and Lynn as much, but I googled those as well to compare. Name directories often only list one or two out of the four variations and their categorisations are all over the place. Some say one is unisex and the other gendered, some say the opposite etc., and Lin is unique in that it's also a Chinese surname, apparently.

I asked Daniel, who could obviously not hear the spelling, whether the name made him think of a man or a woman, and his answer was delightfully undecided.

Names that Lin could theoretically be short for:

- Linda
- Linden
- Lincoln
- Lindsay
- Lindley
- Lindy
- Linette

Pretty equal distribution of both genders there, too. I think if anyone asked, I would tell them it was short for Lindworm. ;)

Possible meanings of Lin, Linn, Lyn or Lynn include:

- soft
- flax
- forest
- fine jade
- ruddy-complected (??)
- sun goddess
- linden tree
- waterfall
- swamp
- tench
- lake

Not too bad, I guess ...

Did I miss anything? Does half the world think it's definitely, undeniably female? Help! Augh, patience, where do I get some. -.-

HNGH

Uh, I promise not to fall into a three-posts-a-day habit again, but this wants out.

I've been taking the new meds for two weeks now and evidently I have not completely lost my mind. So far, so good. However, I'm not seeing any positive effects, either ... unless you count having managed to sleep normally for a week due to not sleeping very well and thus being constantly tired, which I'm really not sure is a good thing. Besides, the night before last my insomnia finally won out anyway.

I'm definitely going to give it some more time, but on the other hand I'm not sure it isn't affecting my mental state negatively at all. It's just so hard to say because I've been a bit nuts for two whole months! How do I tell whether it's being made worse by the meds or not?

There's this incredible boredom I can't get rid of. I already said this about a month ago, but it feels a bit like mania and depression at the same time. Part of me is going "DO SOMETHING DO SOMETHING DO SOMETHING" like a squirrel on crack and yet I'm also completely NOT in the mood to do anything I can think of.

Occasionally this is made worse by sudden attacks of undefinied anxiety. I'm amazed I can even write at the moment because I am fidgeting rather dramatically and nearly bit through my lip a minute ago. My body is tingling as if pure adrenaline were flowing through my veins instead of blood and I have trouble breathing. SO MUCH FUN.

I don't know what it's about, I don't know what might help, I don't know anything. And it's definitely getting worse. Less and less things can hold my attention - almost every single day I lose another topic that I could previously read or hear about without getting distracted. If only I could simply go for a run or something!

Damn You Auto Correct helps sometimes. XD

Ahh, finally I can breathe again. Not that it's completely gone, but then ... it never really leaves.

*thaws*

I went outside twice today, can you believe it? First to look at the flat I've mentioned, then to print out the picture of me with short hair because I want to take it with me whenever I finally get around to having it cut. (Technically I do own a printer, it's just been out of ink for ages.)

The flat was really nice; I have no complaints this time. Here's to hoping I'll get it!

Also, patience: can I have some please? Like, right now?