"I heard the door close. 'Thud,' it said."

You know that feeling when you've got great news that you badly want to tell certain people, but it's not possible right now and you just know that by the time when you finally get the chance, lots of other stuff will have happened and the novelty of the first thing will have worn off, and it just won't be the same as telling them now??

It gets even more annoying when the next big thing that happens is something bad, and while you're still trying to figure out how you're supposed to reveal both at once, the bad thing already becomes old news as well. And so on.

Eventually I just gave up on the idea of summarising anything before I got around to the details. Mind you, the point at which I gave up on it was about three weeks ago. Things continued to happen even after that, so by now I'm mainly confused because there is so much I can't offhandedly refer to yet although it feels like it's been centuries since then.

This is why all I can do is to write down the events of the past two months in a mostly chronological order, as strange as that will probably feel. It's like I'm about to publish a chaptered story about my own life, which ... uhm. LOL.

( First came, of course, the move. Not that long, I'm only putting it behind a cut because the bit of babbling up there is long enough on its own. )

Decisions & Similes

I want to create a community, but I'm scared because I've never done that before and people always give off the impression that managing one can be hard work.

... which probably means I should do it. I so rarely find myself in situations where there's an actual choice involved in deciding whether to do something or not; usually I either run into an obstacle before I even get to that point or I don't have any doubts in the first place. There are no in-betweens with me. Usually.

So this is a novel experience. I get to choose! And the worst that can happen is that I end up with a poorly managed, unpopular community that eventually dies out, right? Not exactly a huge risk.

Although, come to think of it - there is that one problem that has nothing to do with being a community maintainer per se. I'm worried that if I attempt to start a discussion, I'll get exactly one reply and be unable to say anything in response. I have mentioned before that reviews and meta posts often make me feel stupid, and so do simple conversations between fans at times. People post their reactions to the latest book or episode and all I can think is, "Wow. I didn't notice ANY OF THESE THINGS."

While I may be good with words, the less said about my observational skills, the better. (I once tried to use a simile to express this, which resulted in a long internal debate on the possibility of sentient brick walls, followed by speculations about the observational skills of trees and deaf moles, respectively. Since then I have aspired to stay as far away from similes as possible.)

Still, I suppose it's not like being The One Who Started It comes with any obligations. And if I feel obliged regardless, I can always say something along the lines of "Congratulations, you have just proven that you're way smarter than I am."

It probably won't get many members, anyway.