Names, Names, Names

A sudden realisation: I've grown rather attached to the name Lin by now. Like, I automatically feel spoken to when I see those three letters somewhere ... which is actually quite funny because most often that happens when they're part of either "Merlin" or "Colin" and the first half is obscured or something, ahem.

I feel I need to state that, for the record, I did not plan this. :P The only way in which that little fact influenced my decision at all was that it gave me some more confidence in my choice because it seemed to make the name, well, cooler. Also, I like the whole idea that my mother might have named me Merlin if I'd been born male. I still doubt that she actually would have gone through with it, but then again ... this is my mother we're talking about. o.O I would have hated her for it, of course. Now I can safely appreciate this information instead and use it to justify my inexplicable attachment to the letters L, I and N.

( Oh dear, I wrote ALL THE WORDS. Again. )

In spite of my doubts, however, I have become used to being Lin. And very occasionally I forget, just for a split second, that there was ever a choice involved at all. I see it and react the same way as I imagine anyone would upon seeing their given name somewhere. That feels amazing because it's been a very long time since I reacted positively to seeing my "real" name.

Now I only need to start asking people to actually call me that. Sigh. And don't get me started on how I feel about my last name ...

In Which I Am Not A Cat

There was going to be a different post here, but then I decided I was entirely too tired to be allowed to write anything of substance, so I scrapped it.

Instead, I need to link you to this Tumblr post I made earlier. It went on Tumblr because that's where I saw the thing I was reacting to, but it totally deserves to be reposted here.

I call this "I accidentally my body" because I kind of love that meme ok

So basically it looks like I accidentally raised the level of testosterone in my body to the point where it actually had noticeable effects. Seriously, THOSE SKIN PROBLEMS HAVE BEEN PUZZLING THE HELL OUT OF ME. I was all, "Puberty what are you doing, I thought I had escaped this effect of yours the first time around, why have you come back to haunt me, this is not fair ..."

I knew it must have something to do with what I was eating, but I couldn't figure out how. And I cannot believe that it is even possible to achieve this with food alone (okay, plus better sleep and ... more exercise ... oh), but it also seemed kind of suspicious that my menstrual cycle spontaneously lengthened by a week at the exact same time. I was even considering seeing a doctor about it, but otoh I was also quite happy to have another "free" week each month ...

Guise, this is pretty much the most hilarious thing that has ever happened to me. THE IRONY OMG. Because you know what? While I had no internet, I sort of sat here wondering if such a thing was possible, annoyed that I couldn't research it. Just out of curiosity, mind. But curiosity killed the cat yadda yadda; I am not a cat, only the kind of person who at the age of 25 still does spontaneous kitchen experiments that possibly resemble alchemy more than cooking.

... I will be entirely, perfectly unable to resist testing how far this can go.