Still not the post I wanted to write ...

Would somebody please explain to me why I always start to feel worse physically whenever my mental well-being improves?? I do have a theory, but sometimes I'm not sure it makes sense. Basically, the idea is that if my brain is busy freaking out, I sort of "notice" the pain less, by which I actually mean that there is less pain, because presumably it's mostly neurological pain anyway and therefore a brain issue, too. But really I have no idea.

All of which is to say, I've been in pain for three days and it's starting to seriously affect my mood. I suppose I should be glad it's only one shoulder (and the surrounding area, including one half of my neck), but tbh it never makes much of a difference how many body parts are hurting, or which, because what matters is that it's a constant annoyance and just wears down my nerves over time.

So basically hi I can't handle pain. :|

It makes me not want to do things. I'm alternating between feeling sorry for myself and attempting to stay permanently distracted. My eating schedule is already way off because of this. I'm still doing more than on an average day before I went to the hospital, I think, but that'll be over soon if the pain doesn't stop. I've tried heat, stretching and exercise. No change. As I said, probably neurological. >_<