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I have been back for almost a week now and I have to say that while the first few days were great, since yesterday I've been incredibly tired. I haven't really done anything yet today and I can't bring myself to start now, either. I basically want to go to bed already. It's not even six.

Two days ago I saw Timo, which was mostly awesome and I don't think it has anything to do with this. Perhaps being alone all day affects me negatively or I can't handle the lack of structure in my life. Or maybe I simply haven't been sleeping well??

Maybe I sleep too much. If I do go to bed early tonight, I'll definitely set my alarm earlier as well. There's nothing to get up early for, but I know I like being awake in the morning. I dunno. Somehow things have to go back to normal.

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Oh hey, I eventually decided to lie down for a while and it totally helped. I need to remember to do this more often, no matter how many people have warned me against naps and inactivity because of my insomnia. I may be stronger and almost pain-free now because the Cymbalta happens to work so well, but I do still have a physical condition and I must not forget that.

I keep getting these skeptical reactions from doctors and nurses when I tell them that sometimes I simply need rest - or when I answer questions like "Where does it hurt?", for that matter - despite the fibromyalgia diagnosis. It's like they all think that "common knowledge" such as "young people's feet don't hurt after grocery shopping" or "twenty-somethings are full of energy" should still apply to me regardless, which makes no sense considering the whole definition of fibromyalgia could practically be summed up as "You feel like you're a lot older than you really are."

So I will just have to ignore their advice and remind myself that resting is okay. Often it only takes ten minutes of lying down to recover, anyway.